2 days till ilipo!

I'm really excited now. I hate all my clothes and I hate the way I now look in them. This is the first time in my life I've had to hide my stomach, my legs and my arms. I hate the way I look and it really brings me down. The weathers really warm now which restricts my outfit choice even more. I cannot bare to show a part of me I'm not comfortable with, not even to myself. 

The healthy eating didn't go too badly yesterday. I stuck to reasonably healthy meals and didn't really snack. It's not enough though I know I need to work on myself properly. 

It's hard to find the drive to exercise after work. I'm so tired and it's the last thing I want to do when I get in. However with the power plate after my ilipo sessions I am able to use it until the salon closes then I can walk home and even continue when I get back if the motivation is there. 

I need to try new ways of banishing the food cravings without being on a strict crazy diet but I find it find it nearly impossible. I'm eating a lot more fruit than normal which is something positive I can say for myself. 

I wish I was starting this today. I need a push to get me going and I pray this is it. I have never been more excited to better myself.